It has been a very long time since I have written anything. A very long time since I felt I had something to say. The last words I wrote were before my mother died. Life at that point was difficult but to really express the level of difficult I have no words. My mother was a hard person to love. Life with her in prime health was hard but in her ill state she was impossible. She was dying slowly from COPD and made everyone around her pay for her misery. Taking care of her the last two years was stress overload and soul sucking. But I did my duty…